Happy Thursday friends. It’s been such a long week but the week has also flown by all at the same time. I’m sitting in my favorite part of my apartment, the balcony. I enjoy this sweet spot, giving myself an hour or so to write, maybe sip on some coffee and enjoy the sun kissing my shoulders. I feel like I need to take advantage of this spot more often given that I wont be so close to the ocean next fall. I cant believe my junior year at PBA will come to an end in four weeks. I’ll begin as a senior again in the fall and then I’ll have to figure out a good answer to the ‘whats next’ question. I guess my “what’s next” answer would be serve the community and love them well through reflecting the gospel. Yeah, that sounds about right.

I have no real plans which is weird because I love planing and really thrive from planning. I guess I just cant really think about that. On another note, I’ll be traveling a good amount this summer, working a ton and living away from home, on my own for the first time ever. I’ll move into my own little space in May, go to a trip with my University to the Middle East in June (link in bio to donate), also turn 23 in June and then before I know it I’ll be helping a few other friends put together an entire week for incoming freshman. It’s exciting, I think I’m most excited to move out, not because there’s anything wrong with living with my roommates or on campus, but I think that moving into a place with a group of girls was a good first step, I learned so much and still hope to call them my friends, but I think I’m ready for my own, own space. The top bunk and no expressive space, or space at all is starting to get old… I think they’d agree, we are all ready for a fresh start!

In the month of April I will also be planning and starting a podcast. This is something that I’ve wanted to do for years! Can you believe I started this blog when I was only 19!? I hope to launch it in May so if you’re reading this and have a sweet idea, I’d love to connect with you about that. Some of the topics will be, Mental illness/health, being a Christian with depression, the topic of sex before and after marriage, abortion, identity in college, how do we know we are being “called” and so much more. I’m so excited to get a little corner on the podcast train. I’m scared but I know it’ll be so fun.

I know I’m not the most consistent, but I love this little blog family. I want to invest more, and I know I say that but I think about my writing and the way it really does help me cope with things and I need to remember to actually execute that! Friends, I have so many “saved to draft” posts, because I just don’t think they’re good enough. I want to stop doing that and start just putting things out there because I want to. Not because of what anyone els might think. Hope you enjoyed this weird rant of mind. I so enjoy writing and being able to produce writing that might have validity in your life. I want to start to maybe steer away from the “front” or “lifestyle” blogger group. I want to show you that my “lifestyle” is a bit more than what people pick and choose to project. So! In doing so, I will be more vulnerable and transparent, because I LOVE doing that.

Quick update because we are discussing vulnerability and transparency: this month, mentally was probably harder, if not as hard as where I was early last year. For those of you who don’t know I struggle with none circumstantial clinical depression. This means I’m depressed, for no reason at all, except for the lack of hormones in my brain, CRAZY RIGHT?!? So this month I tried to get off my medication, slowly, of course and I have done that, but have felt the repercussions. It has been debilitating, the pain that I’ve experienced, but nevertheless, I’ve pulled through, and been able to keep going because of the Lord, and supportive people who love me well. I’m so thankful for those people. So its been hard, I had a 6 hour meltdown last Friday, where I sat in the fetal position and cried on and off for most of the day. Then I got up, did some gardening, talked to my mom, went thrifting and hung out with some sweet girl friends of mine. I survived!! It has been hard, and I’ve had to ask for so much grace, more than I’d like to admit to.

All is well, friends, that’s sort of my motto these days. All is well.

Blessings,

Liv

Finally be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might ~ Ephesians 6:10